Are you living

This is the opening post of my blog, which will explain the title. I wrote this in september 07, after a difficult few weeks.

" Over the past month or so i've had a lot of things to think about. They've mainly revolved around death. As you may know 49 days ago my grandad was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer, 30 days ago he died of lung cancer.However, thats not what i wnt to focus on. But thats made me think about a few things and the events that occured in the past 30 days have changed me.What i want to ask is...'are you living?'

I know for one,i feel as though for the last month, as George put it today, i have just existed. Yeah i've been at uni, and doing work and things, but i cant really say i've lived. Im not talking about living as in 'woo bungee jumping and sky-diving', what im getting at, all be it in a long winded manner,is that i havent done anything out of the ordinary for my God. I cannot truely and honestly say i have been living for him.

Living for God i supposed to be EXCITING!putting yourself out there for him, being bold, unashamed to take him out to the people who need him most. Imagine how that makes him feel, that the people who need him most, i.e. those that dont know him, are lacking because i havent lived as i should.My campus breaks my heart, it is full of people who are themselves broken hearted, lost, scared, alone-the list is endless- but they neednt be.Perhaps, just perhaps if i lived how i am supposed to live, that would be different.

Im not just talking about obeying God, although that is still an integral part, but if we actually SACRIFICED ourselves for God, how much more of a difference would we see in this world. China are seeing 10,000 people a week come to know God, because they live like they believe. They live like there is a god worth sacrificing time for, sacrificing money for, risking their lives for. I am challenged to change and live like that. This world is crying,screaming out for someone to rescue them. Dont let urselves be the barrier to them being rescued."